A wish a day...

meme game thing

2009-03-12T00:48:31Z

Here's how you do it:
Dear (someone you recently talked to),
I don't really know how to tell you this, but (1). I think I realized it when (2) (3) and I saw you (4) (5). I'm sure you're (6) enough to understand (7). I'm returning (8) to you, but I'll keep (9) as a memory. You should also know that I (10) and (11).
(12),
(Your name)
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Fun.

1) What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - I'm in love with your cat
Red - Our affair is over
White - I’m joining the Convent
Black -Our romance is over
Green- Our socks don't match
Grey - You're a leprechaun
Yellow - I'm selling myself for candy
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - Purple hedgehogs want to destroy you
Other -I dislike your eyelashes

2) Which is your birth month?
January - That night you picked your nose
February -When I quoted Forest Gump
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on peanut butter
May - When I threw up in your sock drawer
June - When you put cuffs on me
July – When I saw the purple monkey
August - When you smacked my ass
September - Last year when you peed your pants
October - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub
November - When your dog humped my leg
December - When I finally changed my underwear

3) Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Chicken- In your car
Pasta - Outside of your office
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad – As you were eating Kraft Dinner
Lasagna - In your closet
Kebab - With Jean Chrétien
Seafood - In a clown suit
Sandwiches - At the Elton John concert
Pizza - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a street light
Annat- With George Bush and Stephen Harper

4) What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Ignore
Red - Put whipped cream on
Black - Hit on
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - bite off
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the pants off of
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive over

5) What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My boyfriend
White - My father
Grey – The Catholic Priest
Brown – The Montreal Canadian’s goalie
Purple - My corned beef hash
Red – My knee caps
Blue - My salt-beef bucket
Yellow - My illegitimate child in Ghana
Orange - My Blink 182 cd
Pink – Your ‘My Little Pony’ collection
Other --The elephant in the corner

6) What do you prefer to watch on TV?
One Tree Hill - Senile
Heroes- Frostbitten
Lost - High
Simpsons- Cowardly
The news - Scarred
American Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Open
Top Model - Middle-class
Annat -shamed

7) Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful you are
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That I get turned on only by garbage men
Angry - That your smell makes me vomit
Depressed – That we’re related
Excited - That I may pee my pants
Nervous - The middle-east is planning their revenge on you
Worried - That your Ford sucks
Apathetic - That you need a sex-change
Silly - That I'm allergic to your earlobes
Cuddly - That Santa doesn't exist
Ashamed - That there is no solution to you being a dumb kid
Other - That your driving sucks

8) What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your toe ring
Yellow - Your love letters to me
Red - The pictures from Vegas
Black - Your pet rock
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - Your car
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your nose hair clippers
Grey - Our matching snoopy underwear
Purple - Your old New Kids on the Block blanket
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your Hannah Montana underwear

9) The first letter of your first name?
A/B - My virginity
C/D - Your photo with the moustache drawn on it
E/F - Your neighbors dog
G/H - The oil tank from your car
I/J - Your left ear
K/L - The results of that blood-sample
M/N - Your glass eye
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X – Your sucide note
Y/Z - Your credit cards

10) The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Love your sweet, sweet fingers
C/D - Always will remember the pep talks
E/F -Never will forget that night
G/H – Will not tell the authorites that you stole the whale from the backyard.
I/J – Mocked you behind your back constantly
K/L - Hate your cooking
M/N - Told in my confession today about the moose poaching
O/P - Told my psychiatrist about the bruises
Q/R - Always wanted to break your legs
S/T - Get sick when I think of your feet
U/V - Will try to forget that you broke my heart
W/X - Haven’t showered in a month
Y/Z – am better off without you

11) What do you prefer to drink?
Wine- Our friendship is ruined
Soft drink – I’m off to lead a new life as a lemon
Soda – I will haunt you when I’m reincarnated as an Eskimo
Milk - The apartment building is on fire
Water – I'm scratching my butt as you read this
Cider– I have a passionate interest for mice
Juice – You ruined my attempts at another world war.
Snapple/Vitamin water – you should really get that embarrising rash checked out
Hot chocolate – Your Cucumber-fetishism is weird
Whiskey - I love Oprah Winfrey
Beer – Thanks for the Cocaine
Other – you should stop picking your nose

12) To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand – Warm tingly sensations
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
France - Love always
Spain - With tears of sadness
China – You make me sick
Germany – Please don’t hurt me
Japan - Go milk a cow
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
USA - Best of luck on the sex change
Egypt – Kiss my butt
England - Go drown yourself

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MY LETTER

Dear Kira:
I don't really know how to tell you this, but I'm in love with your cat. I think I realized it when your dog humped my leg outside of your office and I saw you sit on my father. I'm sure you're open enough to understand that you need a sex change. I'm returning the couch cushions to you, but I'll keep the results of that blood sample as a memory. You should also know that I hate your cooking and I'm off to lead a new life as a lemon.
Go milk a Cow,
Ave

x.x

2009-03-11T18:34:30Z

So, I've started to have a dislike for dolls. Not only in my competition of owning them do I feel like I'm left behind (and was told that someone got a doll specifically to stay ahead), but the money that goes towards them, not to mention, they seem to take up alot of the time I could have with Kira.
Or posting with Kira.
I should not be jealous of inanimate objects! >.<
I've considered selling them several times, but can't make myself do it. Everywhere I look, others are spending money on the dolls regularly, new outfits, new furniture, OR they are able to do it all themselves. I can do neither.
So what I am I doing in this hobby?

>.< GRAH. I love Alva and Koori and Loire and Heru and Caire-head, but for gods sake, I just don't feel like a good doll owner. And those who tell me I am, are the ones who are the ones who take the best (if not obsessive....) care of their dolls.

>.< *storms off to do her papers for her final class* I need to fucking rp already. The fact that I have to find where I need to go pay 155 dollars for a speeding ticket later today is not helping my mood either.

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Guen the zune is halfway fixed! I got her new lcd screen in, but managed to tear the ribbon for the sensors for the buttons. >.> Ordered the part, but since I can only push the left and down button and not select anything, I can't really use it much right now. *sigh*

Notes from my Phone

2009-03-02T22:22:09Z

( I don't know how I lived without this feature) These are just quote and thought from me reading at work and such.

Feb 7 - Interview with The Vampire - page 107 - Louis fond of Lestat mellow and a little drunk (Yaoi support)
Feb 8 - Interview with The Vampire - page 323 - Hatred is not one of the feelings he has for Lestat
Feb 15th - check out the movie the Opposite of Sex
Feb 28th - Fool (Christopher Moore) - 'They'll be wanting comedy relief between the flattery and the murders'
Feb 28th - 'My Torment, my tonic, my fever, my curse. I ache for her.'
March 2 - - Geisha - Taikomochi - male geisha
March 2nd - Geisha - While the reign of Leyasu was of structural functionalist ideal, the beginning of kabuki during that time opened the idea of camp (?) where the women dressed in male drag causing an erotic reaction in many men, and the prostituion of the women there. The yound boys that followed did not lose the eroticism, perhaps because of the influence of the women before them. Due to no taboo on homosexuality (in fact, in some places it was the prefered way of being 'masculine') these yound men fell into the same situation of the women before them. This caused the government again to switch the actors to all adult males. but I doubt that would destroy the eroticism attached to the kabuki theater, or the prostituion among the actors. It was no doubt expected for the actors to continue the tradition that way laid before them. It does seem the rigid japanese way. In fact, throughout the 1950s, and even now, the Kabuki stars seem to get alot of fame and attention, and people seem to be more than willing to be in relationships with them. Perhaps the eroticism has never left.
March 2 - But on the positive side, forcing of women of the arts from kabuki cause the geisha (artists at that point, before the name changed) to need a new way and place to perform. The development of the pleasure quarter allowed not only the women to gain the money a prostitute could, even though many of the original geisha began as prostitutes. More need for art rose as the crisis' increased. This allowed for a learned eroticism of that peaceful tea ceremony and dance taht they already valued. In fact, the artist were already seen as erotic and not the lowest (but not close to) class. The learned eroticism of just hints of their women of class under layers of clothing and glimpses of just sleeves translated into an the eroticism of glimpses of the flesh under white makeup at the nape of a neck, a slimpse of a wrist while pouring tea, of just the glimpse of a lower slip below the expensive kimono.
March 2 - The pattern seems to be, when the Japanese government does worse and can only give the hanamachi attention in seeking relief from the stress and using their company, the geisha thrive. The second the economy and Japan is doing well, ironically, however, the government is able to give more attention to the hanamachi, and their ever struggle with not only prostitution but the bluured lines of prositution but the blurred lines of prostitution that includes Geisha. Each time threatens the geisha number that drops and only surges back when the wave of issues return.
March 2 - Yuentie Tamasuke - A Taikomochi's last statement
March 2 - Lost Japan - Alex Kerr, Dogs and Demons: The fall of Modern Japan
March 2 - created by Kyoto geiko and the taikomachi - Arai Shozo homepage, also Asakuza hanamachi
March 2 - Homosexuality and Civilization - Page 4 - classic seme/uke pairing, and yaoi figuring out who is who
March 2 - Homosexuality - Tale of Achilles and Patroclus - Brad Pitt sure plays alot of homoerotic roles...
March 2 - Homosexuaity - Yaoi fans existed in 345 bc, many greek men slobbering over tales of friendships of men and implying sexual relations that did or did not exist between the lines
March 2 - Homosexuality - Achilles and Partoclus in the Illiad

>.

2009-02-21T16:18:47Z

So.
Exhausted.

I was up til 2 am with Kira, inbetween watching house and plotting story ideas.

Had to get to work by 5 am, so three hours of sleep later.........and I'm still up. I got bagggsss under my eeyyyyyyes. x.x

*dies* (But If I go to sleep, I might not get to bed tonight to get up in the morning for work tomorrow.)

Stolen from hunter_ryu

2009-02-18T01:17:49Z

Making an album! XD (Immortal Night, anyone?)

1 - Go to http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Special:Random
The first random Wikipedia article you get is the name of your band.

2 - Go to Random quotations: http://www.quotationspage.com/random.php3
The last four words of the very last quote of the page is the title of your first album.

You can do this also to generate your album track titles.

If you want to do this again, you'll hit refresh to generate new quotes, because clicking the quotes link again will just give you the same quotes over and over again.

3 - Go to flickr's "explore the last seven days"
http://www.flickr.com/explore/interesting/7days/
Third picture, no matter what it is, will be your album cover.

Put it all together, that's your debut album.

Band Name: Specification (Technical Standard) {STS? XD}
Title: People Other Than Themselves {lol}

{.....It's ironic, cause it's not specific. *snicker, snicker*}

Tracks
1. When it is Thinking
2. Been Times Like These
3. A Waste of Time
4. Without a Sublime Idea
5. And Pass them On
6. You Will Find Them
7. Gain Anything By Winning
8. To God and History
9. Longest Who Laughs Last
10. The Person You Are
11. Pan into the Fire

....XD I Sound like I have an...uplifting band. xD This is addicting as hell. THough I really can't tell what kind of music we do. xD IT seems very depressing, and very...non-specific. We seem to be a band that thrives on irony... xD

XD This is sweet.

2009-02-16T00:13:40Z

Rex Harrison playing the pope. XD
http://www.tcm.com/tcmdb/title.jsp?stid=66918

Otherwise...
Number ONE!

'Gay-day' I have heard it several times now. IF you are INSULTING valentines day 'GAY DAY' does not WORK. OKAY?! *grumble* HEll, if you want to insult ANYTHING, GAY does not work for that.

Now, if you feel that valentines day is a day for homosexual men to be out and about and sexy like, and the day is all about them, then yes, yes it is gay day. If you say that the 'weekend is gay' and you are headed out to a three day gay pride (Which will be happening in columbus soon! yay!) or for some bizarre reason your weekend to you, reminds you of two men having relationships, or more broad, two men or women having a relationship, then yes. Yes it is a bizarre gay weekend.

Please keep this in mind the next time you call something 'gay', because I will find a way to find you and ask you a graphic sex question. >

Number TWO!

[link]
They are trying to take away all these marriages. It's STUPID (Taking away the marriages, not the site itself. I already signed ^^), I will not go into a rant on that, because I will not be able to stop. ^^
Just go to the site, check out the video, and sign if you agree. They have a limited amount of time to get alot of signatures.

Number THREE!

GRAMMAR. It isn't hard. -.- Especially if you are majoring in it. If you are having that much trouble with grammar while in the major, maybe you aren't meant to be there?

SQUEEEEEEEEE~

2009-02-01T06:12:32Z

I. Am. In. Silent. Hill. HEAVEN.

<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

More with pictures, later!!

*runs off giggling like a madperson*

death

2009-01-28T14:17:40Z

At least I'm inside and not out in that insane amount of snow! xD

I have two chapters in one book to do, one in anothe rbook as well as an article to read, and one more chapter. SO, Trying to get all my homework done for the weekend is nuts. I also have to study for sociology exam tomorrow, then I have the con this weekend, I need time to pack too x.x; Then might be doing my experiment this weekend................*Deaaath*

*Sigh*

Got up early this morning to try to get stuff done too x.x

GSA is getting there! xD We have the faculty advisor, we have plans and ideas, we have the first initial meeting set up!

X.X

2009-01-26T21:24:18Z

So I may end up the head of the gay straight-alliance at my campus, and the faculty is really pushing for it. I have about a year left, if that, of college, maybe a little more because of class availability. I went to a lecture today about gblt community and such, and me and a friend from a past class agree that we need a gay-straight alliance for education and all that fun stuff.
I had to go see an advisor today, and I ended up shuffled to the head of the clubs, and we'd end up with a 300 dollar funding for the club, and being able to use places to do things. x.x If anyone has any ideas of activities the club and stuff can do, let me know. For now, I'm just seeking out the other members to start the club with and see what we can do ^^;

OIGH. This is NUTS.

redwishes @ 2009-01-22T09:04:00

2009-01-22T14:08:57Z

Tv meme stolen from onegreyelephant ^^ Before I head to school xD Or rather, to get breakfast XD

1. Bold the shows you watch/used to watch.
2. Italic the shows you've seen at least one episode of.
3. Post your answers.

50. Quantum Leap
49. Prison Break
48. Veronica Mars
47. Star Trek: Deep Space Nine
46. Sex & The City
45. Farscape
44. Cracker
43. Star Trek
42. Only Food and Horses
41. Band of Brothers
40. Life on Mars
39. Monty Python's Flying Circus
38. Curb Your Enthusiasm
37. Star Trek: The Next Generation
36. Father Ted
35. Alias
34. Frasier
33. CSI: Las Vegas
32. Babylon 5
31. Deadwood
30. Dexter
29. ER
28. Fawlty Towers
27. Six Feet Under
26. Red Dwarf
25. Futurama
24. Twin Peaks
23. The Office
22. The Shield
21. Angel
20. Blackadder
19. Scrubs
18. Arrested Development
17. South Park
16. Doctor Who
15. Heroes
14. Firefly
13. Battlestar Galactica
12. Family Guy
11. Seinfeld
10. Spaced
09. The X-Files
08. The Wire
07. Friends
06. 24
05. Lost
04. The West Wing
03. The Sopranos
02. Buffy the Vampire Slayer
01. The Simpsons

From homework

2009-01-22T02:49:34Z

'As recently as the 1960s, divorce was still considered a shameful state that could ruin a political career. As the number of divorced people grew, however, divorced people became more visible and divorce became more socially acceptable and therefore less of a liability. SImilar cultural shifts are occurring around sexual orientation as gays and lesbians 'come out' and increase their visibility as members in their communities, workplaces, schools, and places of worship.'

This is from a book The Forest and the Trees. It's an interesting thought and I can only hope it carries out. Though Divorce seems less of an issue that people reacted to. ^^ I can only hope though. It's something that seems promising. Sometimes sociology is reassuring.

(Have 6 more pages to read of this book, then an article to read and reflect in a journal on, and about 8 pages of more sociology stuff to do. (Two pages assigned, 6 pages to read in a make-up assignment which I then have to summarize and reflect on)) x.x *dead*

Yet another homework day x.x

2009-01-21T14:28:43Z

*a little dead inside* It seems to be all I do anymore. I want to read more War and Peace, Norse myths and Interview with a Vampire (Damn you Kira for getting me back into these!). But I still need to keep reading the Forest and the Trees, and Stumbling on Happiness for my classes,not to mentioln everything else. *falls over*
Today I have to read another chapter in Forest and the Trees, read another chapter in Understanding Movies and take notes (that takes me the longest, chapters are fucking looooong), Read a ny article and write in a journal about them, read a reading I had to have done for sociology but didn't have the book, and a second reading about the same subject that needs to be done for missing class Thurs.

*stares*

*dies*

Been like this all quarter so far. At LEAST I can squeeze personal reading in there somewhere, it's just hard to decide which one of the three books I want to read when I get that time. x.x

<3<3<3

2009-01-21T02:44:52Z

In the words of a south park episode...

O-BAM-A! O-BAM-A!

i think it's pretty damn sweet he was sworn in on the lincoln bible. xD
Voters, you may have pissed me off in California, denying the marriage from continuing, but thank you all of America for Obama. <3

Alva's new necklace!

2009-01-18T00:26:27Z

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2009-01-15T13:25:06Z

It's -18 on campus with the windchill and noone has cancelled any classes (as of yet).

....what is wrong with my proffesors?! *headdesk*

EDIT~
Didn't make it to class, driver door won't close. SO, not driving in that weather up to campus with a door being held shut. Not to mention, how the hell would I get home? x.x Home today to work on homework, jewelry, and possibly watch Grey Gardens.
Tomorrow the car goes into the mechanics, so we'll see what they can do, if anything. XD
Off to finish my movie notes, and read more in depth on my sociology readings.
I had one wrong book and had to order it online x.x gah.

New Quarter starts Tomorrow

2009-01-06T04:22:26Z

O.O PRAY FOR ME.

Sunday: Work 9-4
Monday: work: 9-4
Tuesday:
       Social Psychology: 10-12
       Swahili Club Meeting: 12-1ish
       Sociology: 1-3
       Tutoring at Academic Enrichment: 3-3:30
       Swahili: 3:30-5:30
       Intro to Film: 5:30-7:30
Wednesday: Work: 9-4 - possibly Swahili Club Movie Meet
Thursday:
       Social Psychology: 10-12
       Swahili Club Meeting: 12-1ish
       Sociology: 1-3
       Tutoring at Academic Enrichment: 3-3:30
       Swahili: 3:30-5:30
       Intro to Film: 5:30-7:30
Friday: OFF! Day with KIRA! <3
Saturday: Work: 9-4

Add in various fundraisers randomly.

I can feel the exhaustion already. *dies a little* Why did I do all of this? -.- Why two big level psych like classes with most likely expensive books? At least I don't need to buy any for Swahili...and intro to film probably won't need any...>.> I should be in bed now.

This is RIDICULOUS

2008-12-27T23:11:56Z

Every fucking winter, my father sweeps through the house with the vaccuum and carpet cleaner (That is a high pitch whining all fucking night) and leaves the floor not looking any better, and damp as hell. Which means, we need to doors to the house open to let the air in to dry the floor, and guess what, it's EVERY FUCKING WINTER. WINTTTTTTTTER. WHY!

It makes no SENSE. If you KNOW you fucking need to hvae the doors open to clean the fucking floor, then do you know what you do? YOU WAIT TIL IT IS FUCKING WARM. But nooo, no we must be FREEZING OUR ASSES OFF without even a DRY FLOOR. He has tons of vacation time he could use for a WEEKEND IN THE SUMMER AND GET IT DONE, but NO. NO, we have to do it in WINTER when he's on BREAK. I appreciate the stuff they buy for us, but believe me, WE CAN LIVE WITH HIM TAKING A WEEKEND OFF.

Now everyone gets to walk about all pissy because noone is in a good mood and it will only get worse. Because it's RIDICULOUS. LACKING OF COMMON SENSE. >.< RAGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

And now HE'S going to storm around the house like HE'S the one right, when everyone ELSE in the house DENIES it. I NEED SLEEP AND I'M NOT GOING TO GET IT. BECAUSE SOMEBODY IS GOING TO HAVE A HIGH PITCHED CARPET CLEANER GOING ALL NIGHT FOR HOURS AND I'M GOING
TO BE IN A ROOM WITH DAMP COLD FLOOR AS IF IT WASN'T COLD TO START OFF WITH AND THEN, FUN OH FUN, I GET TO GET UP IN THAT MESS OF A ROOM AND ATTEMPT TO GET DRESSED AND HAVE SOCKS WHICH IS NEAR IMPOSSIBLE.

*biiiiiiiitch*

x.x

2008-12-25T01:42:54Z

Waiting for family to stop looking over videos to open presents. x.x I would read, but I'm having trouble focusing my eyes on anything for too long, let alone this text. Going from constantly forgetting/no antidepressants to 20 milligrams tonight was not good. x.x I've only gone through this once before, and that's when I had like ten pills...x.x to intentionally hurt myself. So, yeah. x.x lol Lovely thought.

I'm gonna go lay down. x.x my head is starting to hurt.

Picture from the kids here tomorrow!

Merry Christmas

So..

2008-12-22T05:51:40Z

I'm feeling better. I've taken my second anti-depressant in the last lonnnng time. I took half the night of my last entry, and a full one tonight. I looked at the bottle and I had three refills up to 8/27/08 before I'd have to see her for a new slip...

Does that tell you how far I've been off of these things? By my own damn stubborness? I'm afraid they take away my creativity. *flail* And if you research any great author, I have grounds, they were all depressed. -.- ^^;;; SO yes, doing better now hopefully, the pills will start working soon I hope.

We were supposed to go to michigan to see the grandparents today, but the weather was horrible in both places so didn't drive up. Instead, had a kind of family day at home, with alot of us sleeping away the morning out of lack of sleep before hand. I got up, packed, we decided we weren't going, unpacked, and stuck up for a little bit, then went back to sleep. And had a nightmare.

I woke my father walked into the bathroom and found Kira and I naked (DOING NOTHING BAD!!!! I SWEAR!) just laying in the tub cuddling, and obviously knew what was going on. Now, I don't know why I dreamt that he didn't know that we are together, because he does know...and though we don't talk about it, he's fine with it. In the dream however, he had a fit, ended up drawing something on the wall against it and stormed out. The rest of the family turned against me and Kira was the only one who was there for me. Everyone in the family outright avoided me and when we were around each other, we were all uneasy and the tension was amazing. I kept strong for most of the dream, acting like I didn't care and shrugging it off, but finally it got to me and I just broke down. Next thing I know I'm on a train and saying how I like to get on it and ride to not very far away and go back to the house to just get away from things. x.x

Weird dream, but I've been nervous about coming out to the extended family and been putting it off for years. In a way, I'm leaning towards telling the family, I have one aunt who we know will outright deny to see me ever again because of it, but I'm also kind of afraid to. My parents are leaving it up to my decision, they don't care if I tell the people or not. We're pretty sure they have some inklings anyway. I don't really need to worry about it too much, I mean, I barely see these people, and in a way, that's a reason not to tell them, it's really none of their business, yet part of me feels they need to know. lol, it's almost like I feel I'm living an illusion, but I'm not. Ah well, I don't know when I'll see them again, so for awhile, I don't have to think about it. (Yet, I do alot.) All these gay right issues are making me more and more aware of how I let the issues slide. And my debt and stuff, I like to live in the fantasy and pretend it's not happening. I can't handle it, and when I make myself do, I end up needing anti-depressants. x.x; yagh. No wonder I'm reading so much Timothy Findley lately.

I've been trying to play alot of the sims to get my mind off of it. ^^ I just made a house, and naturally, I want it badly. *grabby hands*

redwishes @ 2008-12-19T23:33:00

2008-12-20T04:37:10Z

Perhaps it's a true sign of age when you truly grieve over debt. Real tears, not the crocodile ones and ask for your parents to bail you out, but force yourself to have to deal with it yourself no matter how difficult or impossible, it is at the moment and with what you have available.

Not so often with this for most people, is probably the wanting to kill yourself and knowing the only thing holding you back is knowing if you die, your parents will inherit all of your debts you have worked up and knowing they cannot afford it anymore than you can.

And a genuine fear that nothing to make the death quick and painful is available.

And along with that, a fear that, once the debt is gone, there will be nothing to stop you.

Omg.

2008-12-17T02:49:49Z

The 'Think before you say' commercials! <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

I just had a very happy moment, dead of happiness moment! xD It made me very entertained and I'm very much ready to throw it in many others faces. xD

Otherwise, happy by sims and a few others things. Watching Accepted at the moment and it is amusing me. XD

There was some other commercial or something that made me entertained and amused, but I don't remember what it was. x.x

Watched Mike Huckabee on Daily show and made me glad as hell that I didn't like him to begin with. x.x He's an ass and that's the kindest thing I can say about him and his damn hypocritical ways, and yes, homophobic no matter what he says. He's obviously does not see homosexuals as the same 'equality' as anyone else. All it did was make my love for Jon even more so!

Findley love

2008-12-14T19:07:35Z

'What we needed now is a new kind of leader-someone like a flag, whose very presense makes us rise. Not a Mussolini, of whom we are afraid. Not a Hitler, who drives us to our feet. But an emblem whose magnetism pulls us upward.'
'Mene mene tekel upharsin: thou art weighed in the balance-and found wanting.'
'Dear God, I thought, the stars are dark and cold and far away. They give no light at all.'

All three from Famous Last Words by Timothy Findley

At one point I'll have to write up my fandoms spasming over his writing.

redwishes @ 2008-12-14T11:43:00

2008-12-14T16:50:49Z

I was up at 5:10 this morning. xD I was at work until 10:40, and got home around an hour ago. xD Long tiring morning. *sigh*

Anyway, watching Nightmare Before Christmas now. Been wanting to. xD

A little bit ago my laptop fell over while Sean and I argued with Kyle that it's important to know history. x.x Now it's making odd sounds now and then, I hope that's just the fan under the computer, and the keyboard is acting a little weird. x.x *worried*
Work odd hours for the rest of the week, but I am having a personal day on next Sunday to head up to my grandparents for the day. x.x; We'll see how that goes.

Our tree is finally up, and I'll have to see about taking some pics of the dolls by it, xD Today I hope. Heru needs to play with it a bit.

Oh well, in order to make up for my dull lj entry...

redwishes @ 2008-12-06T23:25:00

2008-12-07T04:27:07Z

...........I forget how depressed I really am until I'm alone for a night with noone to contact.

x.x I've pigged out tonight and can't concentrate on anything. x.x DAMN DEPRESSION. *kicks it*

Give me gifties? XD

2008-12-04T04:34:40Z

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